My last week has been one of ups and downs again. And I can’t believe it’s only been a week because I’m exhausted and feeling like this is my life now and missing what my life was. My mom is home now. She has to test her glucose and take insulin shots. She’s still very weak, but getting better. She’s also not one to accept help easily and has been getting irritated with us when we check on her a lot or when she gets visitors a lot. My stepdad finally got some of the blood clots in his urine to stop and on Friday he got to go to a rehabilitation place where we can hopefully get him back on his feet as much as possible. It seems his confusion isn’t getting better, but who can blame him with all that is going on. So then my mom feels upset that this is what she will have to do for the rest of her life. And I understand it. But I also assumed that is part of the marriage vows, right? For better or for worse? So I’m feeling sad for my stepdad as well, and not wanting him to feel her treat him this way.
Got the dogs moved to a Pete and Mac’s dog resort type place for the next week. Although I still don’t think my mom will be able to handle them by herself in a week, we’ll see. I felt bad for the dogs. Played with them a bit when I was moving them from place to place.
Getting little bits of reading done here and there, so keeping up with reviews that are part of tours or requested by publishers for the most part. My audiobook listening is down due to my brain still either not being able to concentrate in the car to listen or driving my mom around right now.
So that’s me right now. Feeling guilty if I do anything that feels normal or makes me relax or happy, when maybe I should be worrying about my family or visiting them or spending all my time with them. I know I have to take care of myself too, but the guilt is hard. Reached out to the people with the Scotland tour I’m supposed to do this summer and they are giving me until the end of May to decide for sure what I want to do and make my final payment. Problem is that my plane ticket was changeable but nonrefundable, so not sure how any of that works either.
I hope everyone else is having a better time in their lives right now. Please read all the books and know that I’m trying to come around and comment as I can so I can at least live vicariously through your reading!
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Sorry to hear things haven’t gotten quite better. Glad to hear your parents are okay for the most part! Hope things get better for all of you this week! <3
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Things seem to be on a good trend. Just hoping they keep going that way. Thanks for visiting!
LIsa give yourself a break. Yes you want to take care of them but set aside at least 30-60 minutes a day for you. Read, play with your dogs or whatever gives you some peace. This is early days and maybe things will improve in a month. Can you do more this summer when school is out? Could your brother cover the week or so you are on your trip since he works from home? If you are handling most things over the next couple months couldn’t he do more that week. I hope things work out and improve for you and your parents. See how things go for a bit before making big decisions.
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My brother is doing a lot too. He was able to take my dad in the first time he went home from the hospital when my mom was in the hospital. I think today though that my mom is slowly getting more on her feet. It just sometimes feels so overwhelming with what is going on and I have to tell myself not to let it get that way. I know my dad would tell me to go, he did give me money that I used to buy my plane ticket. My mom has already told me when I’ve thought maybe I shouldn’t spend that much money that I need to go. So I know I should go no matter what. Just sometimes my brain gets to overthinking! Gah! 🙂
Like you I have older parents with health challenges so I sympathize. My husband is also a diabetic and is now insulin dependent so I also understand this challenge. It is important to take care of ourselves. I allow myself a few days away at a time but no big trips like I wish I could do. I’m fine with that. I’m just happy to have them here with me. I hope things get better for you soon. Take care Lisa.
Agreed. I’m happy I live close enough that I can help and spend time with them. Thanks for visiting!
Hugs. I’m sorry things have been so tough still with your mom and stepdad. Try not to feel guilty. There’s really only so much we can all do for our loved ones!
It’s hard to not feel guilty, but I’m doing my best! Thanks for stopping by!
It sounds like a very hard time. Just remember that is will all pass and things will get back to normal eventually. Try and do something for yourself every day😁 Take care Lisa!
Yeah, I’m trying to make sure I make time to read and do some blogging as I can, since that is what I enjoy!